It sucks when you find out something horrible about you. I've grown from something so awful; I would never want anyone else to experience it.

  So two nights ago I went through my moms file cabinent. I found some of the court papers between my father and I.

  In the papers it says that he molested me....shoked me while he molested me. It also says that he cut my stomach and called me a "stupid bitch." He also said he didn't like me or my sister....he also smacked my sister when she was 6 months old for crying.  he also stuck things in me and took off my pants and molested my butt too...idk from the report it sounded like anal sex because it says something about a banana. He also masterbated in front of me and forced me into oral sex....i vomited on him and he said "Stupid."   Then when I told Mandy (my old babysitter) she told my mom......his mother and brother then came over and tried to kidnap me. I can't believe all this....I went throughh this from when I was born basically til I was 4 years old.

  I really hate my father...he's a like a psycho satanist or something. Nobody even knows what all happend...but he was proven guilty...but they didn't do anything because only got as far as a restraining order and they said I was too young to put him in jail or something.